Love

I remember you sprawled on the floor, face a mask of blood

I took care of you that night

Nursed your wounds

Healed your broken soul

That night was so special to me.

You opened your soul to me

Your face

lacerations, contortion of pain

Tears scalded my cheek.

I held you close

Don’t let go, I don’t want you to let go.

But you did.

I’m sorry, I’m so sorry.

The beatings hurt, they do.

But not as much as what he tells me.

He tells me that he’s the only one for me

It’s true, no one else would want me.

I’m old, I’m alone

I Love Him

There's a past that I can’t just forget.

He was there for me then.

He beats me so bad, baby

But when he comes to me with flowers and chocolate and loves me like I'm the only one.

Oh, that's the highest high.

That’s why I stay.

Because I know he's in there.

He doesn't beat me that bad.

I was just over reacting.

…

Sometimes, when I see your bruises, your pain

There's a part of me that’s glad.

You deserve it Mom

You keep coming back

But at night, when it's just me and my thoughts

Revieres haunt me.

He comes home, drunk

There's a fight

He slaps you, throws you on the floor

You scream in pain

He pulls out a knife

No I don’t want to think about this.

The funeral

The casket

The gravestone

You laugh at what I say,

But I see the look in his eyes.